going back to the corner where I first met you;

2010-12-07T01:20:00.002+08:00

Undoubtedly for an athlete to improve, he needs to overcome himself – his discomforts, his pains, his fears, his thoughts. In my opinion, improving in a physical sport does not only necessitate time and effort spent in training, the development and nurture of the mind is also important. Even simple knowledge of adjusting boat parts to better suit yourself, repairing boat parts when damaged, or responding to situations during trainings or competitions are of utter importance, in the absence of such it may just spell the difference between a medal finish and a non-medal finish. Such knowledge and wisdom comes from experience, and I believe I can more than safely say cannot be found in greater volumes than in a person who has participated in competitions of the highest standard in the world and won. Such knowledge and wisdom would be lost if not passed on to the next generation of athletes.

However, I believe that personal experience and success is not all that defines a good coach. A good coach needs to coach. This statement might seem rhetorical, but it also defines what is needed in a coach. Yet, a good coach in my opinion not only coaches, but finds the best way to coach – finds out the best ways to bring out the best in the people he is coaching. In my years in the sport, I very often notice coaches who merely watch as the people they coach train. But our coach is different. Save for programs of easy-paddling, he always paddles alongside the team, pointing out ways in which we can improve our stroke and even going the distance to illustrate by example.

One such occasion which remains strong in my memory was during our preparation for the school nationals this year. Our program was simple – warm up, and then do a single sprint length at our race intensity, one-by-one. Simple, but only for us. Coach sprinted alongside each and every single member of the junior team down for training that day, with the very little rest in between our solo sprints.

And I believe it is this very difference that separates a good coach from a better coach: being involved in your trainees’ training, versus being a part of your trainee’s training.

2010-12-07T00:51:00.001+08:00

You alone can rescue

You alone can save

You alone can lift us from the grave

You came down to find us

Led us out of death

To You alone belongs the highest praise

It's draining and intense, but I'm okay with it if people are going to be blessed. Because God and people have blessed me.

2010-12-02T03:45:00.001+08:00

Nights like these make me feel, I'm probably never ever going to catch up with the world.

2010-11-29T02:20:00.001+08:00

Your faithfulness is like the rising sun that never misses a morning.

2010-11-28T01:54:00.004+08:00

So often we complain, we rant, we say stuff is unfair. We do stuff for others, and we expect stuff to be done for us - maybe about an equal amount, that should be enough.

I'm not a person really concerned about gifts or service, but more of time and intimacy. And intention. I don't think I should be affected by it, but it's a special circle of people. A special circle of people that made me feel special. Distinct.

Distinctly left out.

Seriously, the only one out of four? I may say it jokingly - I may say it like I'm not bothered at all. But believe me when I say I'm bothered a whole great deal. Like, a lot.

Give without expecting return. But not even a little bit?

2010-11-01T16:05:00.001+08:00

Just for the fun of it, you're going to be posting in the reverse 2nd person point of view for a bit. Basically it means that you are going to be posting like you're putting thoughts into my head. If I didn't get that, it's okay, I'll just have to read it out to get what you're saying. Like, read out what I'm reading right now. I'm going to be having fun (:

2010-11-01T14:57:00.003+08:00

A comment I read in a youtube music video, that I feel has truth to it:

of coarse he's not famous. he doesn't use autotune and his lyrics are not about sex, money, stupid love songs, etc

2010-11-01T13:24:00.001+08:00

Serenade.

2010-10-31T22:46:00.001+08:00

Going to work so much harder.

2010-10-31T22:20:00.001+08:00

Fleur Sterling.

2010-10-31T00:56:00.001+08:00

I believe that if I stop singing such songs, I will stop wallowing in these stupid vibes.

2010-10-31T00:41:00.001+08:00

Getting off things. Getting on with life.

2010-10-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

"A little work, a little sleep, a little love and it is all over" - Robert Frost

I'm going to work hard on disciplining my actions and my thoughts.

2010-10-27T10:43:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gv3E6G-Ua4k

2010-10-16T00:38:00.001+08:00

I saw this interesting thing: http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_la5iscKnAW1qzw8auo1_500.png

2010-10-15T20:40:00.002+08:00

I realized something very important today, and it's going to shape how I make decisions from today on:

God made Woman to be the partner of Man; and not the downfall of Man.

2010-10-12T01:21:00.001+08:00

To do list:
SMILE.
TRUST GOD.
BE AWESOME.

2010-10-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

Misunderstandings
A bottle, it lies just beyond my

Reach - on its side, wondering why

No one bothered to set it right again, fix the

Pain, hear its plight.

The cold cylindrical container croons - a soft murmur;

Whisper - does anyone hear? It doubts

That anyone pays attention to a mere

Bottle.

Could the bottle have fallen on its own accord;

Or could it've been a stray gust that caught

It by its heels, trying to run away from it all -
Its heart in shambles; crumbled wall.

Yet as hours pass, it lies the same:

Will no one ever feel it yearn, for some

Understanding? It doesn't ask much -

Just for someone - just anyone; to again, set it

Standing.

2010-10-10T20:40:00.006+08:00

Stake

Like a single candlestick burning, burning -

Steadily watching its own flame; own pain.

As the figure goes away, turning - he's learning

That not all starlight steer their lane.

It's quiet; echoes deep -

Like plain grass dots of sheep;

Yet the noise of his beat, bleeting heart

Drives away a sombre sleep.

Now rest; now awake -

Her voice is calling 'cross the lake;

This anguish bids goodbye too well,

A vampire through a stake.

And as they walk, they saunter on -

Unafraid and unaware;

Yet still this dream, may taunt her long -

I'm afraid and now aware.

2010-10-10T00:49:00.001+08:00

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!" - Philippians 4:4

2010-10-10T00:28:00.001+08:00

Just run away from it all, and wallow myself to duskfall in self-pity and angst. How typical.

2010-10-08T23:09:00.001+08:00

I will not let emotions rule me. This is a promise.

2010-10-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'm going to take the next 10 weeks to put my good traits to good use, and correct my bad traits.

Week 1:

Habitual, careless with words.

Sooooo, I'll make it a habit to pay compliments and edify rather than insult and tear down.

God help me (:

2010-10-08T01:10:00.001+08:00

Life is not a game - and we've got no room for losers. We're going to win this together.

2010-10-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

I write and I write, but who hears? No one hears written words.

2010-10-03T01:25:00.011+08:00

small fry, in YOUR EYE

Deep breath, order messed,

oil sizzling away on the nearby pan,

blunt knife making weak cuts

through the onion. Slice after silver

slice; ethylene guess. And I think of

you.

Dancing about like I'm on fire,

like oil about a pan. This desire

to know if you think about

me.

But I'm unknowing; just knowing

I think about you all the time -

do you ever think about

me? I don't want to gas - gas if you think about

me.

Eyes tear, but it's not you - I tell myself

it's just the onions, tearing me up.

No, it's you. It's you

tearing me up.

Like scrambled eggs, my heart lies

torn.

xxfal

2010-10-01T23:20:00.005+08:00

Gift

Like the first hint of perfect love,

A snowflake falls - falling... falling...

Easing into my mind and finding place where it's

warm, sweet - like an October fireplace.

A chill reaches from my tongue-tip; yet

it's not a smothering cold - more like a blissful hold

of warm soothing and surreal sharing

of this heart ablaze.

With morning brings a frozen drizzle,

A month and a half too soon. Spoon

digging through fried eggs still sizzling; soul

searching through her words, brings this yearn to a

Clandestine croon.

Single

letters not sufficient to form the words

that I want to say to her. No... ... whisper

softly in her ear.

With every strenuously symmetrical snowflake

comes reminder that the day draws near.

Yet night after night I lie awake,

the greatest gift's to have you here:
I love you.

xxfal

2010-09-19T17:21:00.012+08:00

Here's a little warm-up:

Ardour

If pond fish knew not fish from seas;

If meadows knew not forest trees;

If gravel knew not desert caves;

If apples knew not cider graves.

And yet I know you. And that's rather

Suave.

And then one for Gengjie's birthday! Madly late, and I apologize for that ):

A little beyond now

Your scented breath of mellow mint upon the aftershave,

an Apple effort on the trek to starlet that you pave.

With winter walks through slighted snow and jogs through fetter-fog,

yet summer solace waits beyond the battles that you brave.

And then a proper one, I guess:

Three-tone tumult

Red tea; the calligraphic words upon the weathered wall,

Red salmon; prize of spring-time fresh from winter's treasured trawl.

Red steak; the meat is reasoned raw - the red has yet to fade,

Red melon; mess or guess or blest: the choice remains unmade.

Green signs; so spelling exit from the red-adorned cafe,

Green cacti; 'long the alleyway that warn me not to stay.

Green cab; a genial greeting like a genie from her lamp:

Green meadow, please.

Amber; amble along - as if I'm not to leave.

Red rear-lamps; nay the rapid red, they stop me in my track,

Green bill - what's going through my head? - my feet take me right back;

to the glimpse of gold I see in you -

for you're the star I cannot lack.

Mmmmmmm! Poetic devices:

1st: Anaphora, perfect rhyme, iambic tetrameter.

2nd: Perfect rhyme, mind rhyme, assonance, consonance, alliteration, sibilance, symbol, allusion, iambic heptameter.

Last: Anaphora, perfect rhyme, mind rhyme, internal rhyme, assonance, consonance, alliteration, pun, symbol, caesura, colour imagery, iambic heptameter (:

Awesome. Until next time!

2010-09-15T22:17:00.005+08:00

Float

Flotsams drift by in a frozen sea;

they float by like Sunken Ships -

scarce avoiding iceberg tips that guide frigates

to home-bound glory past Hades' gates.

Dead fish follow the flow, yet there lacks

a flow in this lavish lattice lake. So lost

they are in this boisterous body - Fresh

and Frozen; whence winter waters spell cruel

cold swims up clear cascades -

if they freeze

not.

And yet I sit here,

where skies stay clear

and children hardly shed a troubled tear.

Paying no attention to that distant boat;

or the snuffing snow; or that winter coat.

I sip again, at my Cold,

plain, vanilla float.

2010-09-15T01:53:00.011+08:00

Sleep-time! Last but not least, to my best-friend in the whole wide world, whom probably will never see this:

if you were but a floating flower

i'd like to be a scraper-tower

we'd share the wind and sunshine hour

the sad, the bad and lemon sour.

Four lines of nine syllables - looks like I really love regularity.

2010-09-15T01:16:00.015+08:00

Lip's Lisp

If my life were a movie

I'd rather be the solitary tree

in a corner by the stream

fighting back the tears;

the lies - too long forgotten,

as pages fly by; the broken years.

Walk 'long the aisles of this desolate damnation;

figures too far to remember - to leave but a wisp

as emotion leaves this cold rock through my lip's lisp.

And all that remains -

are faults of incineration; ash that blows in the wind.

Fleeting Fleeces

Hasten to sleep, my little lambs -

for the wolf cries half past one;

the hour has nigh come for restful peace.

As people sleep, sheep fluff their fleece.

Like fruity cake - it leaves a taste

of sweet, yet like a drought.

The sandman's sack it bare but beckons:

the restful watch is a resistless route.

^ Two-minute poetry.

Okay, super random stuff now, written in about less than 3 minutes in all, heh:

When bynes walks into the loo

he drops his pants and drops his poo

no bowl or plate could hold his stool

that's why they call him ghastly ghoul!

When bynes walks into his room

a giant mountain 'fore him looms

his tears shed fast like spores from 'shrooms

they speak of fate; of imminent doom

When bynes sits before his book

he chances 'pon a tasteful look

but girls don't suit his hungry hook

what does? a rhyme at every nook!

OKAY MOST RANDOM.

2010-09-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

Day 2: Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me!

In case I forget how blessed I am.

Day 3: Some days get so tough I want to break down and cry, or give up and stop trying, or sit and whine and complain, or beat up the next person who stands in my way, or just curse my own life. Yet always in the end, I just thank God.

2010-08-31T00:10:00.001+08:00

Day 1: He who finds his worth in God, finds his worth.

I wanted to send a friend something on MSN... so I typed:

"wait uh

i send you smt

wait uh"

and then half an hour later I remembered, and I was like

"sorry

so engrossed in work i forgot"

.......... seriously man. What's up with IB.

2010-08-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

YAY. I just cooked myself a yummy bowl of spaghetti (:

2010-08-29T15:53:00.001+08:00

Hundred day fast.

2010-07-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

I just read through all my old posts in mynightjournal. Made me reflect a lot, and remember a lot of stuff. Seems I'm making the same mistakes, still?

Upstream

Slide into groove; the river rhythm plays-

The path is smooth for a trout headed for slaughter.

Path of least resistance for reckless fools,

Far from the foolishness of leaping salmons-

Foolishness, as they call it.

Escape. The swift swim against the current,

A torpedo trained on its target- heart dead set.

Yet the life and pow'r coursing through his veins

Is passion.

There are many fish in the ocean.

But this fish is a river fish, not meant for ocean fish.

This fish has a higher calling-

This fish is swimming

Upstream.

2010-06-20T00:49:00.005+08:00

Remedy; rare roses riddle rest.

Leave. This mind lacks affinity for all

Else. Speak in time with the waning moon alone in his speckless loneliness, then dash his

Hopes. A small smooth stone leaves waves in its wake; an avalanche from a speck of

Cold. Yet hot, this mind knows not

Affection. Look long in hope to find, dig deep in angst to seek

Remedy; rare roses riddle rest.

2010-05-12T21:26:00.005+08:00

Wa sonnet siol. Not very good, but whatever. So here we go:

Left in its wake

I, the land look longingly out to sea.

The lady of beauty and mystery

Taps gently on this lonely lover's shore.

Where land turns to sand, hear the light lapping waves

On the rugged rocks now yearning for attention.

What roaring heights of sea the monsoons bring!

What valiant shouts when met with gaia's might!

Yet seasons pass - a still, left in their wake.

Uneasy calm - all too quiet again.

Hear not the sea recede, avoiding far

The laments of the cold, broken boulders.

No sound of waves nor waves of sound be heard again!

For the sea has returned not the earth's call to bliss,

But left in its wake, a brittle stone heart.

2010-05-11T22:23:00.001+08:00

MUGGERS. MUST. BE. DISCIPLINED.

2010-05-11T21:52:00.001+08:00

Finally.

A good day of training.

2010-05-09T03:28:00.001+08:00

I'd really like to stop making the same mistakes.

Over. And over. Again.

2010-05-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

What am I doing with my life?

2010-04-16T21:29:00.003+08:00

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. But we do know that words do bear weight - words build up, words tear down. Words encourage, words edify, words enlighten. But how about the other end of the spectrum?

Things have happened lately that have made me pause and wonder, would things be the same if some words were not said? Possibly, we don't want to rule out that possibility, but the error wouldn't be on our side then, would it? Sure, I wasn't at the scene and I don't know what happened for sure, but I do know that the comment made was hurtful and unnecessary. A win is a win, a loss is a loss. Why do you compete? To prove you are better than others? To mock others who are not as good as you? To let others know you are the best? Fine, granted that you are motivated by such low ideals. But mocking your opponents after you have won? I think we should have a little consideration for others, not everyone's a victor. But it all boils down to thoughtfulness and self-control, doesn't it?

How am I using my own words?

2010-03-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

HMM. I just thought about how I do not fit the stereotypical sports person or nerd, simply because I'm in one of the best schools, and one of best sport teams.

Thank God loads for His blessings (:

2010-03-24T22:38:00.001+08:00

3rd day without MSN or Facebook. I feel my social life fading away, only to be replaced with equations and definitions and hypotheses and scientific models and endless arguments concerning knowledge.

God is my Strength, Strength like no other, Strength like no other, reaches to me.

2010-03-22T00:41:00.001+08:00

Good night, world.

2010-03-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

What makes a champion?

2010-03-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

How do you forget, someone who you don't want to forget? Because every time I try, I fail miserably. You know it's not so easy - you know you're not so easy to forget.

Some dance to remember
Some dance to forget

2010-03-04T00:56:00.001+08:00

I don't want to be a hypocrite.

2010-03-02T23:56:00.003+08:00

Know

Lost and weary

I fall again to my knees

Found in none but You

Lay my burdens

Before Your throne of grace

I seek my solace here

I know, I know

That You are watching my very soul

I know, I know

That You love me so

I know, I know

That You are not gonna let me go

And I will trust in You

I'm breaking free

Knowing You love me

Knowing You gave Your life for me

I'm letting go

'Cause You hold tomorrow

'Cause You hold my world in Your control

2010-03-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

Expect great things from God, attempt great things for God.

2010-02-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

Does not a soldier fight with gun and blade, yet fear himself to be subject to gun and blade? Netherless it is but a clashing of mental strength.

Okay Siddhartha is screwing up my mind. I'm afraid to lose, yet make or break, may it to be God's glory.

I like everything I do and think of compartmentalized. There's a huge compartment for school work split up into different subjects, a large compartment for kayaking and stuff, and there's a compartment for you. And it's not small. One part of me wants to be rid of the pain, yet one part of me wants to hold and protect. You.

2010-02-21T18:58:00.003+08:00

Different people see different sides of me. Some people think I'm good in sports, some people think I'm good in studies, some people think I'm a good speaker, some people think I'm funny (debatable). Yet I see all the flaws in myself, God sees all the flaws in myself. I see the parts of myself seeking repentance, the parts of myself seeking change, the parts of myself seeking God.

And I will never stop seeking God. Thank God for He catches me every single time I fall, time and time again. And despite how good at many things I seem to be, I fall a lot. Praise God for my strengths, and my weaknesses, for through my weaknesses His strength is ever more evident.

Laus Deo Semper.

2010-02-21T18:32:00.004+08:00

Here in Your Presence

Found in Your hands

Fullness of joy

Every fear

Suddenly wiped away

All of my gains

Now fade away

Every crown

No longer on display

Heaven is trembling in awe of Your wonder

The kings and their kingdoms are standing amazed

Here in Your presence

We are undone

Here in Your presence

Heaven and earth become one

Here in Your presence

All things are new

Here in Your presence

Everything bows before You

Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way

2010-02-16T01:17:00.001+08:00

The beginning of introversion?

2010-02-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

If I seriously ever get the time, I'll pen the epic novel that is my life.

2010-01-28T21:23:00.003+08:00

What is pain? Show me power.

Oh by the way, I'll only be online during the short 10-15 minutes each day when I'm having dinner. Don't miss me. Love-

2010-01-26T21:46:00.001+08:00

So near, yet so far.

2010-01-25T00:54:00.002+08:00

Praise and glory be unto God. When down is down, and up is down, God is still sovereign.

2010-01-15T17:44:00.004+08:00

I want to be all that God wants me to be. Time to focus.

My soul sings
To my Saviour King of kings
I need You
You are everything to me

I love You
So much more than anything
I'll live for You
Jesus You are everything

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
You're all that I want
You're all that I live for in this world

Jesus
You are all I need

Jesus

You are everything

GO, SPIRITUAL SPARTANS!

2010-01-12T11:34:00.001+08:00

I know that God exists, not because of the evidence in the world, but because of the evidence in my life.

Si'er often tells us that the best way to bring across the idea of God is not through physical and historical evidence, but by sharings and testimonies. Yet how many of us truly believe in that? I remember someone once shared this analogy with me: if someone came up to me and said that he got hit by a truck - yet he looks normal, with no hint of injury or an encounter with such a huge object at high velocity - I wouldn't believe him. Yet God is larger than a truck, and if someone says he encountered God - yet he looks the same as always, with no hint of change in any way - who do you expect to believe him?

The biggest testimony to a true and living God is right before you. Your life.

2010-01-08T01:57:00.001+08:00

Day two? Whatever.

Stop to consider. I think I've made up my mind.

2010-01-06T13:40:00.003+08:00

Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

2010-01-06T00:37:00.003+08:00

Day one.

I don't like it when people ask me not to think too much. Because analyzing stuff is what I do by default. Regardless of whatever it's regarding.

In any case, Eugene, don't think too much.

2010-01-05T11:08:00.001+08:00

When the world stands still
Don't hold your breath
'Cause I don't want to miss a moment with you

2010-01-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

You know what? I think I give up.

2010-01-04T12:39:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you feel like you miss school.

BUT IT'S ALL A LIE! YOU DON'T! NOT EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT! NOT AT ALL!

2010-01-04T12:23:00.002+08:00

If everyone in P.E. band were a pokemon...

Lefa used Sing!
Everyone fell asleep!

Nicholas used Sleep Talk!
Nicholas muttered some words about... a mob of pretty girls following it?! Uh okay.

Yueseng woke up!
Yueseng used Metronome!
Yueseng can play its keyboard riffs in time now (like FINALLY)!

Youfu's Soundproof prevented it from falling asleep!
Youfu used Rest!
But its health is full (You-FULL, gettid?)!

Pikachua (Justin) woke up!
Pikachua used Thunder Wave!
Eugene because paralyzed (or stunned la whatever)! It might be unable to move!

And epic finish:

Eugene used Attract!
But it failed!

MOAR POKEMONS SOON!

2010-01-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

Reign in Us

You thought of us before the world began to breathe
You knew our names before we came to be
You saw the very day we fall away from You
And how desperately we need to be redeemed

Lord Jesus
Come lead us
We're desperate for Your touch

Oh great and mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

Spirit of the living God fall fresh again
Come search our hearts and purify our lives
We need Your perfect love, we need Your discipline
We're lost unless You guide us with Your light

Lord Jesus
Come lead us
We're desperate for Your touch

Oh great and mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

We cry out for Your life to revive us, cry out
For Your love to define us, cry out
For Your mercy to keep us
Blameless until You return

Oh great and mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

So reign, please reign in us
Come purify our hearts
We need Your touch
Come cleanse us like a flood
And send us out
So the world may know You reign, You reign in us

2010-01-03T00:42:00.001+08:00

To learn control over words, is like gaining control over legions of soldiers.

2010-01-01T11:48:00.002+08:00

'Eh your bass playing improve a lot ah. I think usually I can't hear you because of Nic on the drums.'

Hehe I would like to start the year thanking God for everything for everything that I now have, and everything that is to come! Thank God for the blessings of family, friends and achievements that I can use to His glory. The saved will boast not in themselves, but in the Lord who gives in His grace and mercy!

Oh yeah, thank God for the song I wrote hehehe. And thank God for giving me one of the most powerful support but least flashy instruments! Haha I feel pride has always been an issue to me, which is actually not that difficult when you look at everything that God has blessed me with. But I thank God that has given me the chance to worship and praise Him on the bass - one of the most background instruments - so background that most people won't hear me when I play! But all glory be to God! :D

dududududududududududududududududududududududu. Yay bass!

To God be the glory, the best is yet to be! (What a cheesy finisher...)

2009-12-30T00:31:00.004+08:00

Standing here
In Your presence
Thinking of the good things You have done
Waiting here
Patiently
Just to hear Your still small voice again

Haha I love complimenting and encouraging people, because I believe that everyone has good qualities. Yes, even dreaming.

And what I love about myself, is that I'm super sincere. Yay me!

Stop to reflect: What's the quality you like most about yourself?

2009-12-27T16:17:00.003+08:00

Your Love is Holding Me

There's a peace I know
Overtaking my heart, my soul
Washing all my pain away
Breaking night with glorious day

Through stormy seas
You will lead me on
Through shadowed valleys
You will lead me on

Your love is holding me
Holding me, holding me

27 December 2009

2009-12-27T15:59:00.003+08:00

Eternally

Lord, won't You come
Fill this place
With Your awesome power
As we bow
Take Your place
As the King of kings

We desire for Your presence to reign
In our hearts eternally
We are longing for Your Spirit to fill
Our hearts eternally

Lord, see these hearts
Humbly bowed
At Your throne of mercy
As we sing
Take these lives
For Your Kingdom's glory

25th December 2009

2009-12-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

Time to stop doing weird stuff and go to bed. I sense disappointment.

2009-12-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

AVATAR LOL.

2009-12-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Magic.

2009-12-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

I want to be strong. So I can strengthen others.

2009-12-23T00:52:00.001+08:00

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.

2009-12-21T23:35:00.001+08:00

Count my days as gifts from God. Don't lose focus.

2009-12-21T22:23:00.013+08:00

Haha X-Factor was a blast. Wait, that's a pretty huge understatement. It's really difficult to put into words, this feeling I think many of us share. I personally think Sier's description of it as 'the BESTEST camp we've ever had in WAC youth ministry' is a HUGE understatement. I have never left a single camp in my entire life feeling such a huge impact in my life, in so many many ways. I've learnt many many things - the camp was an instrument that God used to reveal many areas of improvement, be it worship, relations, character or focus. Through all the fun, the excitement, the energy, I've found myself lacking time and time again, but I know that God lacks nothing, and in Him I am more than adequate. On-/off-stage discipline, boldness with the Gospel, going out of my personal comfort zone to make new friends feel comfortable, praying for unity, mutual encouragement - I think I'm lacking in many many places. But I know that as Sier wanted to share with our new friends, God is more than sufficient for me, and His power is more than enough to enable and empower me toward change. I'm an eaglet - a LEADER in training!

Many times during the camp I feel I lost focus and got distracted, be it because of mistakes or whatever. But I know that mistakes are made for us to learn from and to improve on, and God is more than able to empower me to undertake new tasks of higher challenge if I'm willing to trust in Him to help me improve and learn. Humility humility. A humble heart, willing to repent and learn, is the beginning point for many great things to come. And I believe that God is sovereign - I'll place my relationships into His mighty hands. I don't care what man says, if God says otherwise. And by the way I know this sounds cheesy, but I want to tell you, Rachel, that you look stunning to me. Always.

I really admire Sophia's hype and energy - I believe it is a manifestation of God's power in itself. The Church WILL be a home for an assembly of disciples, ready to support and admonish one another; encouraging, empowering and edifying each other on to good works. In all honesty, we have much to learn. I, have much to learn haha.

Praying and receiving in faith. It's such a powerful thing. I remember as I was praying for good weather for the high elements a great spirit of doubt just rose up in my heart. Maybe it was the dark clouds, a slight drizzle already falling upon my skin. God I pray that the skies will clear up. What if they don't? God I pray right now for there to be good weather. What if it just pours down like the last time you prayed for good weather? GOD I BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE ABLE TO CLEAR UP THE WEATHER SO THAT WE MAY ENGAGE OUR NEW FRIENDS IN A TIME OF FUN AND BONDING. And the spirit of doubt took its leave. And the rain stopped, after barely even drizzling for a couple of minutes. What's lighter than a drizzle? Because that's the kind of rain it was. And clear weather for the rest of the day, praise God. Will you pass the test of faith, the test of believing and receiving? I hope I pass all of God's tests, for I want to work miracles in the lives of others - I want to testify about the one true God, with whom nothing is impossible.

With God, nothing is impossible. Nothing.

Haha you know the 3 dreams that Sier wanted us to pen down on the last night of the camp? My dreams are to become:

a Prayer warrior, moving mountains with faith;

a Disciple of God, disciplined and rooted chaser of God's heart; and

an Evangelist, a witness to the nations.

Eugene, I believe in your dream!

P.S. - Avatar was awesome. One of the best movies I've watched this year. (Wait. That's not that hard. It was the only time I've been to the cinemas for about 2 years now... D: )

2009-12-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

OKAY LA I KNOW MY BLOG NOT MANY READERS KAY. NO NEED TELL ME D:

2009-12-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA WHAT A WAY TO PUT IT.

scargene leong. says:

really

blew me away

haha

and if you firstblood chunwee

remember ah

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scargene leong. says:

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scargene leong. says:

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assists: kairos for prayer support la

scargene leong. says:

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scargene leong. says:

all go missing

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falconseraph

scargene leong. says:

devil think gank

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initiate

then i dps

then the rest global nuke

scargene leong. says:

nono

then the rest zeus wtf mode

spam ulti

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scargene leong. says:

then you last hit

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wahliew

i dps kay

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dont forget God

hes the guy who typed -wtf at the start

scargene leong. says:

HAHAHHA

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I LIKE THAT

up on my blog post

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2009-12-11T15:12:00.002+08:00

You're stuck in a cave. A dark cave. And guess what, your last possible source of air just got sealed off by some falling rocks. All you have is a box of functional matches and a box of solid fuel.

Optimism, is striking a match and lighting the fuel, so at least you can see everything around you, even though you know it's probably just going to use up your limited supply of oxygen ever so quickly.

Pessimism, is striking a match, and setting yourself on fire.

2009-12-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry. I feel really impersonal.

2009-12-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

Words build up, words tear down. I want my words to bear so much weight people take what I say seriously. I want to encourage others, to pick others up when they're down. I want to build others up, to teach and guide where I have been blessed with understanding.

I want to use my words like how words were meant to be used.

2009-12-07T23:56:00.003+08:00

LONG DISTANCE NOT SO FUN D:

Ah my legs are still aching from the morning run :/ I did a better time than my previous 11k haha, even though I was slacking for a majority of the distance. I need to find my long distance breathing pattern again :/ My breaths were shorter and shallower than usual today. Maybe that's why my first half or so was so slow haha.

And I think, just think, that we might take this somewhere.

2009-12-04T22:26:00.001+08:00

I stopped to cry. Haha, God counts the tears I cry uh.

³⁸As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. ³⁹She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. ⁴⁰But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"

⁴¹"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, ⁴²but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

- Luke 10:38-42

2009-12-01T11:40:00.002+08:00

Wa. Woke up late this morning and rushed off to training without taking a shower. Reached macritchie at 6.50 and got barred from doing the sprint programme for being 5 minutes late. Walaooooo. John and I did a 1k race set in our k2 instead. Coach said our first 300m was 'incredibly fast' and comparable to the World Champs senior men k2s, but after that we died really bad haha. Like slowwwwwww. But he said our 500m burst and last 200m burst was quite good, so I guess we did quite good la. Yay.

Malaysia was not fantastically comfortable. Haha 8 hour bus rides there and back were quite pointless, I think I was asleep nearly all the time hehe. River rafting was awesome fun stuff, and our river guide was pro yeah. We take shortcuts through the rapids :D Wandering through the cave was quite miserable, especially the low ceiling parts where we had to commando crawl through muddy water. Waterfall abseiling the next day was awesome stuff too, but mega dangerous la lol. Which brings us to the highlight of the Primers' Challenge - the 3 hour plus trek through the leech- and mosquito- infested forests in search of the rafflesia flower. It was super high up in the steep hill and it rained, making the ground all muddy and slippery. So we risked our lives to have 5 minutes with the elusive rafflesia flower. And leeches suck balls. Literally.

Haha the resort was quite good though. Open-air and all, but it was rather cooling at night. Showers weren't too bad, save for the brown water whenever it rained and sand got washed into the natural water supply. And the food there was SPECTACULAR. Awesome stuff we've got there :D

And now, the sharity gift box duties call. Looks like I'm in for much pain and agony tomorrow :/

2009-11-29T20:39:00.001+08:00

I can only hold you and protect you in my dreams.

2009-11-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

Why do people attend church service? We attend church service to seek and achieve change. So that we can change the world. The Early Church were called Christians by non-believers who saw Christ in them. Modern day believers call themselves Christians. Though no one can see any similarities between most of them and Jesus.

2009-11-23T23:16:00.001+08:00

When you hang on her every word, but she says nothing at all.

2009-11-22T16:15:00.001+08:00

Haha I know what I want for my birthday. For all my friends to attend the X-Factor camp! (:

2009-11-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

Waiting at the bus-stop was quite a terrible experience. Lucky we weren't the only people at the bus-stop. The feeling is simply sickening. Break the silence?

Standing here in Your presence

Thinking of the good things You have done

Waiting here patiently

Just to hear Your still small voice again

Holy

Righteous

Faithful to the end

Saviour

Healer

Redeemer and Friend

I will worship You for who You are

Jesus

My soul secure

Your promise sure

Your love endures always

2009-11-12T15:50:00.003+08:00

Awesome stuff :)

Click for enlarged image!

2009-11-12T15:08:00.004+08:00

10 km time trial today. Lost to Weiling. Zzz.

I've been trying something recently, but I don't reckon I'm very successful at it - trying to be antisocial. Yes, yes I know I probably failed pretty badly since I'm not the type to sit in a corner and stone. But I've been getting people calling me 'emo' and 'acting funny' and 'attention seeking'. Um, the word is ANTISOCIAL. Okay trial period over. Back to myself, ya.

Training intensity has been increasing ever since round ubin, which Nic and I so awesomely screwed up heh. But still top 10 okay. And yes, I lost to Gengjie. Gengjie is OWNING. M-M-M-M-M-MONSTER KILLLLLLL.

Went looking for a girlfriend with Bynes yesterday after purchasing Primers' uniform and stuff. Love you Charlene <3

Hmm I did quite a bit of thinking during my swim just now, and I realised how dangerous relationships can be. If not handled properly, they can in all reality be open windows for jealousy, pride, anger, cynicism and a lost of trust and focus. Subtle as they are, they are undeniably real and potential footholds for the devil. I admit that over some recent matter I've fallen into one of these traps as well, feeding negative emotions and the like. Sarcasm, familiar to anyone else? But there should be unity in the Church - a unity of purpose, focus and voice.

²⁵Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. ²⁶"In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, ²⁷and do not give the devil a foothold. ²⁸He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

²⁹Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. ³⁰And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. ³¹Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. ³²Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

- Ephesians 4

We are called to be humble before God. How do we know what humility truly is? As I was swimming I somehow started comparing my own achievements with others. CCAs, music, grades. I was reminded that as children of God we should not compare ourselves with others, like the path of thought that Singaporean culture has indirectly developed within us, but instead we should compare ourselves to who God sees when He looks at us. The perfect example of our Lord Jesus Christ. Likewise, how do we learn true humility? By observing Jesus' example.

¹²When he was accused by the chief priests and the elders, he gave no answer. ¹³Then Pilate asked him, "Don't you hear the testimony they are bringing against you?" ¹⁴But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge—to the great amazement of the governor.

- Matthew 27

The humble quietly submit themselves to God, to His word and to His rod, who follow His directions, and comply with His designs, and who are gentle towards all men.

Have I been gentle with others?

2009-11-09T20:59:00.002+08:00

Oh yea. Some conversation after training:

Me: "Coach, how was my stroke?"

Coach: "Well it was quite good. Really."

Me: "Uh. Then why am i STILL LOSING TO BRANDON?"

Coach: "Because he is twice as strong as you?"

Me: T_T

2009-11-09T20:47:00.003+08:00

Haha I like nat team trainings because the timings are quite flexible. Training was quite awesome today! Anyway, I came across some facebook group today called "When I was your age, there were only 150 pokemon". Nice pics hehe.

CUTE AH.

WILD PIKACHUUUUUU!

HEH DRAGON WARRIOR MONSTERS!

It's some ongoing joke about dragon ball z I think. OVER NINE THOUSAND!

Heh. I love that expression hehehe.

2009-11-07T23:32:00.001+08:00

What in the world.

2009-11-07T20:28:00.002+08:00

I hate that feeling of longing I get on weekends.