It's been about 2 years now I think. Maybe slightly more. I'm getting rather tired of having to face the same feeling every once so often, it's wearing me out. I've tried many many things. Deleting her number, her msn contact, blah blah. I talk too much about her with my friends I think they're getting sick of it as well. Is she worth my time, my energy? I would suppose so. But am I worth hers?


We paddled 30km yesterday. Fell to the back of the entire group because I can't really ride wash well. I hear coach rowed 68km around an island when he was in the Hungarian national team, 12 years old. I really want to improve so much more. Coach didn't let me do weights today because of my shoulder, so I went for a run with Xintian. I haven't ran so hard before in a long while. Like running up some super steep slope until you can't get down from the slope for ten minutes because your legs are trembling under the pressure. I've got to swim 6.5km tomorrow, since I couldn't do it today with the lightning and thunder. 90km paddle, 20km run and 6.5km swim this week.

Focus.

BCME. Bad choice, mister Eugene.

Eugene. orientation group one! says:
):
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
why?
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
i don't want to imagine ib
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
haiz
what can I say
you're growing up, boy
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
the english a1 sl sounds like
like
war
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
it's a nightmare
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
save for the lack of gunshot rattles
it's like
warfare in the mind
even the thought of it
drives people up the walls
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
yep
it's all that and moe
more
haiz
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
bio ia...
30!?!?!?!
.........
x2
chem also
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
omg
don't get me started
wait
what combi are you thinking of?
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
bcme
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
oh
let me ask you
are you hardworking?
answer this question seriously
VERY VERY seriously
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
i'm willing to delete msn on my com and my facebook account
=.=
hardworking la
but short attention span
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
then you should be okay
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
should be
thanks ah
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
bio is okay
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
reassuring...
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
the exams are not hard
trust me
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
...
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
I got 6 without studying much
but the IA's...
they KILL
listen
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
.........
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
BCME
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
time to go a levels
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
nono
A levels is harder
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
.........
okay
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
everything is learnt at more depth
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
time to go poly
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
don't
you're gep
geps prosper in ib
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
I WANT TO PROTECT MY MIND
PLEASE
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
IF they work hard
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
DON'T TORTURE MEEEE
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
I'm serious
listen
In June, you'll go for WOW
ENJOY it
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
...............
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
the best week of your IB life
but AFTER that
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
HAHAHA LOL
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
study like hell
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
NICE ONE
=X
i'll lose my sanity
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
Mid-years after june are no joke
nah
you won't
it's manageable
BCME
Eugene. orientation group one! says:
acsi ought to demolish the basketball courts and build an asylum with counselling facilities for intermediate stage madness
IB f***ed, IOP SCR**ed says:
they HAVE counselling facilities

I fear. I fear for my life.

- and she smiled as she waved goodbye. I wonder what that meant.

YAY RAINING NO TRAINING. No la, today rest day. We got back our report books and student profiles today. Heh my testimonial sounds awesome, but I'm just not too sure how much of it is true, and how much of it is stretched like mad. German Os are finally over, and I can throw away all my german books. We had some really interesting talk about excessive gaming, and I feel that I should go endulge myself in some now.

I met Siming at Clementi on the way home. I didn't really know what to say so I walked quite quickly after the bus reached our stop. But I turned around and waved goodbye, -

Oh yeah. And another. Narrative within a narrative:

Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
veganfox. Ü says:
hahahaha okay good!
hahaha kenneth ong talk about u
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
....
veganfox. Ü says:
and your bulging arms
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
sure
veganfox. Ü says:
awww yeahhh
really leh
nvm
bynes says:
haha ok...
u got kenneth ong swooned over you
TSK TSK

FRUSTRATION. I can't ever seem to get my perfect stroke. TIP OF THE DAY! Leave your concerns in the hands of God, and He'll see you through.

Anyway, convos are getting interesting recently:

shinghand says:
guild wars?
hahaa
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
what's that
shinghand says:
you'd be surprised
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
i've never even heard of that
shinghand says:
it's an mmo
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
i have nooooo social life
shinghand says:
hahaha
it's the converse actually
since you don't play much comp games (especially addicting mmos) you have a social life
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
the
last
movie
i watched in a cinema
was 1-2 years ago
probably pirates 3
shinghand says:
woah
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
before that
shinghand says:
get a girlfriend
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
i am legend
shinghand says:
haha
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
or enchanted
I CAN COUNT THE MOVIES I'VE WATCHED IN MY ENTIRE SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFETIME WITH ONE HAND
ok maybe two
the closest thing i have to a social life
is dinner after di, and lunch after sunday service
=.=
shinghand says:
o_o
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
REALLY
hahaha
shinghand says:
what do you do?
train whole day?
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
sigh
now then you realise ah
you know me how many years already
shinghand says:
1 only
actually
haha
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
1 plus la
shinghand says:
1 1/2
about
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
ya
now you know why i smile when people tell me they're busy?

And...

Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
'if you want to date, there are three things you must have'
'number one, TIME to commit'
=.=
fail
'number two, FINANCIAL STABILITY'
=.=
double fail
'number three, EMOTIONAL STABILITY'
okay maybe that one i have a bit
but for the drama
=.=
triple fail
bynes says:
noo!
u no emo stab
HAHA
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
ya ya
naturally
bynes says:
=)
the only stab u hav is on a boat
Eugene. fulfil your ministry. says:
no la
that one also capsize
bynes says:
=(
aww

Haha. Time to work out something. Like get some boat stability first.

Wah. I've learnt so much in the past 4 hours. Boring yes, but thoroughly enriching. You know like how healthy food is not always pleasing to the tastebuds, but beneficial to the body? All these technical facts about living life as a Christian is rather similar, my mind screams for oxygen but my soul relishes the nutrition. Where's my FOCUS?

Heh anyway, I'm alone at home. I like it because I can have a private karaoke session and no one will complain that my singing is horrid.

OPEN UP THE DOORS AND LET YOUR GLORY FILL THE EARTH
KING OF HEAVEN WE DANCE BEFORE YOUR THRONE!

Haha I thank God for my results. Really really do.

Haha you know I'm bored when I spend two hours getting owned in dota. Gah I should be sleeping -.-

*Daryl and Matthew arguing about whose hero 'fatter' or having better items*
Matthew: I'M FATTER. COUNT LA.
Me: NO. I'M FATTER. PANDA FAT. PANDAREN BREWMASTER.
Daryl: NO. I'M FATTEST. I'M REAL LIFE FAT.
Matthew+Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, SELF-OWN.

Ah me tired. Heh I've always found it amazing when people complain to me that they're tired, because I think we know better. I feel cheated. Victor and I thought we were going to run 6km with Jori but we ended up running like 10. Finished the water programme really late.

Getting back results tomorrow! But I have that crazy german paper as well, and I really hope I do well. I think I messed up my eoys big time. But I'll trust in God and His provisions, ya?

What a Friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer
O what peace we often forfeit
O what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer

Last day of german lessons today. Ah I hate goodbyes, the kind of feeling that you won't be seeing someone else in a long long while again. I even get it reading good books, books where the authors are 'successful in developing the characters to a level that the readers feel emotionally attached to them'. Haha oh well. Frau Tan quite zai heh. My german improved like mad within the year.

O LEVELS IN 2 DAYS =X

Enough is enough. This is where I turn around.

Running from running.

Zzz just woke up. When did I fall asleep again? Got to check my last post heh.

I dreamt I was sitting beside someone familiar this morning while waiting for the bus. I've always felt weird on a holiday declared by our school, when everyone's wearing their school uniform and I'm in PE. Having tuition in a bit, but I haven't finished any work hehe. I'd better go do some now ):

Best friends, worst enemies.

MONSTER HUNGRY!

Sometimes I wish they would serve food in larger portions.

Oh yeah, just one last thing.

TIP OF THE DAY! This one I learnt from Isaac:

LEARN TO SPELL THE NAME OF THE PERSON YOU'RE TRYING TO IMPERSONATE.

Ack. I forgot I had a cut on my shoulder and proceeded to scratch it. Got it when I brushed against some boat's bow this morning. Wait. Yesterday morning.

Hmm. I just realised how much time I spend making my warcraft map. Have to mug like a monster tomorrow. Sigh.

It's time to light up the world! There's no school tomorrow as we're having marking days, but I've still got german Os this friday and sometime next week as well. I'll still be mugging when everyone's slacking...

Heh I haven't been doing any work for the entire weekend so I guess I'd better start tomorrow! Mug sentence structures and vocabulary for german and finish up chinese tuition homework. It's sad la. Having tuition after exams. Prepare for higher chinese Os, maybe I'll get an A if I work hard enough (:

Had my second training in ages today, we're still working on paddling techniques, that equates to blisters, more blisters and aches. Heh I think a hundred and eighty degree trunk rotation is crazy, but the path of imba-ness is paved with craziness. Ask Matt for one, he'll attest to that :D

I WANT TO DRINK TEH BING.

Eugene Leong
23 Nov 1993
ACSi 4.9 09
Westside Anglican Church
I'm more than a CONQUEROR in Christ!
Eat, Sleep, Paddle!

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