It's been about 2 years now I think. Maybe slightly more. I'm getting rather tired of having to face the same feeling every once so often, it's wearing me out. I've tried many many things. Deleting her number, her msn contact, blah blah. I talk too much about her with my friends I think they're getting sick of it as well. Is she worth my time, my energy? I would suppose so. But am I worth hers?
We paddled 30km yesterday. Fell to the back of the entire group because I can't really ride wash well. I hear coach rowed 68km around an island when he was in the Hungarian national team, 12 years old. I really want to improve so much more. Coach didn't let me do weights today because of my shoulder, so I went for a run with Xintian. I haven't ran so hard before in a long while. Like running up some super steep slope until you can't get down from the slope for ten minutes because your legs are trembling under the pressure. I've got to swim 6.5km tomorrow, since I couldn't do it today with the lightning and thunder. 90km paddle, 20km run and 6.5km swim this week.
Focus.
